californication

Dear Karen,


If you`re reading this, it means i actually worked up the courage to mail it. So good for me. You don`t know me very wel but you get me started, i have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this... this is the hardest thing i`ve ever had to write.

There`s no easy way to say this, so i`ll just say it. I met someone. It was an accident. I wasn`t looking for it. I wasn`t on the make. It was a perfect storm. She said one thing. I said another. Next thing i knew, i wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation...now there`s this feeling in my gut. She might be the one. She`s completely nuts...in a way that makes me smile --highly neurotic--

A great deal of maintenance required. She is you, Karen...! That`s the good news. The bad is that i don`t know how to be with you right now. And it scares the shit out of me. Because if i`m not with you right now, i have this feeling we`ll get lost out there. It`s a big, bad world full of twists and turns, and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment...the moment that could`ve changed everything. I don`t know what`s going on with us, and i can tell you why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me....but damn! you smell good--like home. And you make exellent coffee. That`s got to count for something, right?
Call me...



Unfaithfully yours,
HM